Do you ever feel your voice tighten the moment you face the camera?
Yeah… me too.
Hi, I’m Jazi, and this is my third podcast — part of my ongoing practice to speak more freely and communicate better.
Today, I want to share something I noticed while practicing.
Before I hit record on my Sony Alpha camera, I usually warm up using my computer webcam.
And I realized something strange:
When I talk to my computer, knowing I won’t use the footage, I feel relaxed.
I can speak for ten or fifteen minutes straight, no problem.
But the moment I switch to the real camera — the one I plan to upload from — suddenly everything tightens up.
My thoughts don’t flow as easily.
Maybe it’s just because I’m new at this — it’s only my second or third practice this week —
but it reminded me of that ladder experiment people talk about.
You imagine yourself climbing a ladder before bed — feeling every step, the weight, the texture.
Then you tell yourself, “I’m not going to climb a ladder.”
And yet, many people who do this end up climbing a real ladder within a week.
It’s like when you say, “I’m not going to scroll TikTok tonight,”
and suddenly you’re three hours deep in dog videos.
So I thought, maybe I can trick my brain the same way.
What if I record with my camera — but tell myself, “I’m not going to post this.”
Maybe that’ll relax me enough to speak naturally.
And who knows — maybe I’ll end up posting it anyway.
On Procrastination and Natural Flow
I’ve been trying to record since morning.
I kept procrastinating, but I really wanted to get this out.
I remind myself this is practice — just me rooting myself, building the muscle of showing up.
And maybe it’ll inspire you to do the same — to just shoot and share.
Because, honestly, when you’re just starting out, almost no one’s watching anyway.
That’s the best time to experiment.
I also heard that people today prefer live, unpolished content.
Maybe it’s because AI is everywhere — people crave something real.
So I’m letting myself speak naturally and just observe how I sound,
what feels easy, and what still feels forced.
On Finding My Format
In my first podcast, I spoke for about ten minutes — it felt too long.
The second one, I tried five minutes — and after cutting it down, it was barely two.
Now I’m learning to find my rhythm — maybe somewhere between five to eight minutes, depending on the topic.
Last night before bed, I had this thought:
Why do we start with why instead of who?
We often ask, “Why am I doing this?”
But our why can be shaped by culture, family, and environment.
It’s not always pure.
I think we need to start with who we are.
Our true frequency.
To do that, look at your childhood — what you loved, what you kept coming back to,
not just what you were naturally good at, but what genuinely excited you.
For me, I’ve always been drawn to motivational speaking,
but I was never much of a talker.
So it’s not about doing what you’re already good at —
sometimes it’s about developing the skill that calls to you, even if it’s hard.
Because excitement itself is guidance.
Returning to My Core Passions
I started YouTube back in 2007 — a long time ago.
I wasn’t consistent, but I always came back.
Just like I always return to motivational work, music, guitar, and dogs.
I might explore different things, but I always orbit around those few themes.
That’s who I am.
So now, I’m making them my focus —
building a life and a creative ecosystem around what keeps calling me back.
Because that’s the truest version of me.
And I’m inviting you to follow along as I turn my life into a movie —
scene by scene, note by note.